last trip of 2012

So.. Hi..

i know it's december already, i know you guys knew it as well. im not gonna rant like a mad woman about how fly 2012 was, because i bet you guys felt it too. well, to be honest this is not where im supposed to be right now. im supposed to be sitting in my desk staring at my chemistry books and memorizing all those stuffs. yes, that formula. pretty much thing has happened since my last post, you know my last post was 2 weeks ago maybe? i dont know but.. here's the rant.

im in my final week, perhaps some of you are in as well. tomorrow's supposed to be the last day until school set higher standards for math then we ought to take a math retest. god damn it school, im not einstein. taking math once has already stressed the hell out of me, now twice? oh lord have mercy on math. i took IELTS test already, but still havent gotten the result and im nervous like shit, im just afraid. on the other hand, i need to submit 15 artworks by early january but i have zero in my hand right now. i'll be taking SAT test on january 26th and.. as you can see, im not quite ready. im ready for my winter break starting dec the fifth. had plans already about going out with my bf and pizza date with my girls. and you know what, i will never have enough pizza or pastas in my life. im italiano by blood perhaps. will be going to singapore as always with my fam for 3 days-ish? damn singapore again, but its okay as long as they have gong cha& koi. then i'll be leaving for shanghai which is.. i dont know im not a big fan of china eventhough im chinese by blood (okay im not italiano, here here..). the last time i went to china was.. 3 years ago and it was my visit to hongkong and macau, and it's not even china, people. so.. im crossing my fingers hoping i wont be seeing to much mountains, or rivers, or stuffs like that.

okay its 4pm already i need to get my lazy ass back to my desk studying so.. adios! and by the way this is my 500th post yay.

ESCALADES 2012

Gosh... Can't believe it has been two weeks after the closing ceremony :"

365 days of us.

The first one to send me with roses, the first one who ever bake something for me.
He picked me up directly after my additional class. It was a surprise seeing him standing there, with an umbrella, because it was raining.
Had dinner together when he then showed up with roses and a tart.
"Happy first anniversary," he said.
There's no reason to not love you.
Happy first anniversary :)

"Teriakkan kita pemenang.."

Kalau disuruh menceritakan tentang ESCALADES "Millennium" 2012.. honestly, it's just gonna be too long. Kepanitiaan resmi pertama saya sejak masuk SMA, dan otomatis adalah kepanitiaan terakhir saya. I can say I'm definitely grateful to be a part of it, bisa jadi bagian dari satu kepanitiaan yang super solid.. And I couldn't be any more thankful!

Perjalanan ESCALADES selama 2 bulan bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Bukan jalan mulus yang tinggal lurus saja, sampai ke tujuan. Banyak permasalahan yang ditemui, baik masalah dana, masalah perizinan, masalah peserta, maupun masalah intern di bidang lomba lomba. H-14, saya panik. Jujur, paniknya luar biasa. The opening ceremony is right in front of our eyes, and I can't say we're not ready. Tapi terimakasih Yesus kalau pada saat itu, Tuhan bantuin kita buat kuat dan percaya bahwa semuanya akan indah pada waktu-Mu. Dan memang terbukti. Pada saat techmeet, peserta lomba memenuhi kuota. Dan ya, acara kami bisa mulai! Memang aku, kamu, kita semua boleh berencana.. Namun pada akhirnya memang rencana Dia yang paling baik.

It was 4.55 AM, Saturday morning, when I realized I'm already too late. Panitia diminta buat kumpul jam 5 di sekolah, dan ya! Saya baru bangun jam 4.55. Sedikit kepanikan melanda karena rintik hujan yang melanda. Langit tampaknya memang kurang bersahabat, karena kemarinnya pun, langit terlihat sendu walaupun tidak ada yang menetes dari angkasa. Doa dan puasa kami membuahkan hasil, karena ketika jam menunjukkan angka 6, hujan pun reda, matahari mulai menampakkan diri.

Hari demi hari berlalu, masuk pagi pulang malam selama 4 hari berturut turut memperat ikatan antar panitia. Secara semuanya capek sama sama untuk tujuan yang sama juga. Semuanya lelah, dan bukan hanya lelah. Tapi dashyat lelahnya. Mendekati puncak acara, penutupan acara, lelahnya makin menjadi jadi. Tapi percayalah bahwa tidak ada usaha yang sia sia, dan memang iya.

Acara penutupan berjalan sesuai rencana.. bahkan lebih indah. 1000 tiket terjual habis. Ditambah lagi lumayan banyak yang masuk tanpa tiket. Apa yang saya awalnya ragukan, ternyata berjalan sesuai dengan rencana. I couldn't be any happier. It was the best closing, more than my expectation.. Everything was so.. divine. Hugged lots and lots of people, tears flowing, realizing it's our final year, final shot.. Seriously, it's only one week, but I miss ESCALADES2012 already..

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11+2

Wake up, feel the air that I'm breathin'
I can't explain this feeling that I'm feelin'
I won't go another day without you
Hold on, I promise it gets brighter
When it rains I'll hold you even tighter
I won't go another day without you.. 

Eleven!

It's been a long time since I last have something to talk about. I've forecast-ed that this October would be hectic as hell, and yes, I'm proven right. I couldn't thank God less for the three days off He gifted me, and the rest of the students.

Eleven. Yes.
One of my favourite number, based on Dealova novel, "Nomor satu dari yang satu.." or in English we say, "The first out of the firsts," which I interpreted, the best out of the best. And yes, me and my boyfriend have been dating for 11 months, plus a day (well yesterday was our 11th monthversary.. weehee). You know.. Eleven is my favourite number, thus that's why the eleventh month feels special to me.

You know, seeing each other everyday, talking to each other everyday, or BBM-ing each other everyday doesn't guarantee a single thing. Both of us drifted away from where we used to be. I was busy with my SAT Preparation and it took away our Saturday or Sunday date, yet both of us were busy with our own school business. As well, he was also busy preparing for his college admission weeks ago that the only thing we talked about was about his college, dealing with his dilemmas and helping him out. The dramas between me and my girlfriends took pretty much attention that I kept on rambling to him. Yes, we did tell each other what's going on with our own lives. But one thing we missed, how's OUR relationship going? As we got busier and busier.. stuffs like midnight calls gets more and more seldom. When I have finished studying, I used my extra time to sleep earlier.. Most of the time I overslept because how exhausted this few weeks were. I can say that we were lacking of our quality time, since the frequency of us talking together or discussing things about us lessen and lessen as each day goes by, and obviously, our last date was on early August or something.. We gotten into more and more fights that it drained the energy out of me, and of him too, I can say. Things just got worse that sometimes I feel like giving up, a lot. I kept on questioning, I kept on doubting things between us. If it wasn't for him.. I guess I've given up since Idk when..(well this could be the cheesiest thing I might have ever said in my entire life lol)


Being in a relationship doesn't always mean talking to each other as often as possible.. because it has the tendency to bore you. The only thing I can say.. try to keep up with what's in your relationship and keep on evaluating, not only for the sake of yourself, but the sake of your relationship. As I went to church yesterday, the sermon from the pastor was heart touching..

"Falling in love is easy, but building love and maintaining it is the challenge....When you feel like giving up.. remember the first time you fall in love."

Thank God that this 3 days off finally gives me the chance just to gradually get back where we used to be.. I know the upcoming days are gonna be more and more hectic for sure, but at least I finally got the guts to talk about these to him, and we managed to fix things up. I love you, and I couldn't love you less :)

Drifting apart

Isn't it sad knowing that slowly everyone's drifting apart?
All the issues and dramas.. and moreover, it's the last year where we should be bonded, not drifting this way..
Personally, I hope things get better. Sooner or later.

Hello October.
Damn, time flies. Am enjoying my 3 days off school, due to the mid term break after the midterm test few days ago.. I finally get the chance to take a breath, at least. I didn't even plan on going back home since October is a super hectic week. Lots of things to be done and.. I'm pretty sure time will fly faster this October, remembering how hectic things are gonna be..

I hope the best of October, and to all of you too!
Happy October, enjoy!
xx

ESCALADES 2012

A short brief about ESCALADES 2012, our school (SMAK5 BPK Penabur Kelapa Gading) annually holds a cup, and which is also an open house for our school. And for this year, the theme for our cup is 'Millennium'. The cup holds for one week, starting from the 20th of October, where we'll be having the opening, and until the 25th of October, the closing ceremony. There are sports competition, which will started earlier, since the 17th and the 18th of October, but as well, we have a fashion design competition. The fashion design competition itself is divided into two competition. We have outfit making, where the contestant ought to make an outfit which suits the theme (Millennium), and by using the main material we have provided. The main material of their outfit is aluminum foil, but they can bring their own additional material to add some touch ups the outfit. They are not required to sew, since we provided each contestant a mannequin and pins for them. And the second one is fashion drawing, each contestants are required to draw an outfit which suits the theme. They can draw and color it, or they can make a collage out of it. There's no requirements for this since it's all about the creativity.

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Dealing with failures.

This post is mostly about my rambles, and bear with it, kay?

To succeed. Yes. That's basically everyone's need. Just don't deny, who doesn't want to be one successful guy? And the idea when they say that success destroys you, keep that in mind. In my opinion, success will lead you and encourage you better.

It's indeed true that we have to be careful on what to wish for. But in the other hand, dreaming is what defines you. Dream as much as you can, as we all live to fulfill our dreams right? I have never heard of a case when someone said, "Oh I have succeed in lots of things and it destroys me." After achieving something everyone dreamed of, doesn't it motivate you to do things better and greater than that? Well. It's the nature of us, human beings that we'll never be satisfied with what we have today. We'll forever want more, and we can't deny that. And succeeding on achieving something brings the best out of someone. It'll gain their confidence and help them to go further to the next level. To achieve another chapter of their dream.

On the darker note, failure obviously destroys someone. Theory is just a matter of theory. When people said that you can only learn to get up if you have ever fell down. In fact, not everyone has that kind of big heart to achieve failure. Not everyone is in a conducive environment, surrounded by people who'll have his/her back. When someone fails, somehow there's a little piece in them that breaks in pieces, knowing that they have failed to prove his/herself, failing to pleased people whom they loved. Somehow, you lost your confidence, and finding back what's lost is rather hard, isn't it?

Everyone brags when they succeed, but no one brags when they failed. Perhaps they're ashamed of it, or because of other particular reasons only heaven knows. But the thing is, it's not that easy to get up after you fell. It's easier to keep on walking as you have already walked before. It's easier said than done too, right? 

When poeple says that succeeding too much will make you feel overly proud of yourself, and I personally think it's our nature to feel that way. But failures could kill what's inside of you. To sulk in misery or to move on is a personal choice. But the aftermath of failure will always feel the same to people. It kills.

This is not a motivational writing, I'm currently not in the best mood I can ever be. This short essay was written for my SAT lesson test. It tears me up rewriting it, knowing that I am failing everything I'm doing. I sucks. That's the only thing I can conclude.

Apology

I'm the one to blame..

Sorry for the pain I caused, for every single thing that made you shed your tears.

Sorry if I caused too much fights..

Sorry for being the worst you've ever had..

INSTAFEEDS- Summer holiday

These are some random pictures I managed to take during my holiday to Europe last summer! Weehee!