Eleven!

It's been a long time since I last have something to talk about. I've forecast-ed that this October would be hectic as hell, and yes, I'm proven right. I couldn't thank God less for the three days off He gifted me, and the rest of the students.

Eleven. Yes.
One of my favourite number, based on Dealova novel, "Nomor satu dari yang satu.." or in English we say, "The first out of the firsts," which I interpreted, the best out of the best. And yes, me and my boyfriend have been dating for 11 months, plus a day (well yesterday was our 11th monthversary.. weehee). You know.. Eleven is my favourite number, thus that's why the eleventh month feels special to me.

You know, seeing each other everyday, talking to each other everyday, or BBM-ing each other everyday doesn't guarantee a single thing. Both of us drifted away from where we used to be. I was busy with my SAT Preparation and it took away our Saturday or Sunday date, yet both of us were busy with our own school business. As well, he was also busy preparing for his college admission weeks ago that the only thing we talked about was about his college, dealing with his dilemmas and helping him out. The dramas between me and my girlfriends took pretty much attention that I kept on rambling to him. Yes, we did tell each other what's going on with our own lives. But one thing we missed, how's OUR relationship going? As we got busier and busier.. stuffs like midnight calls gets more and more seldom. When I have finished studying, I used my extra time to sleep earlier.. Most of the time I overslept because how exhausted this few weeks were. I can say that we were lacking of our quality time, since the frequency of us talking together or discussing things about us lessen and lessen as each day goes by, and obviously, our last date was on early August or something.. We gotten into more and more fights that it drained the energy out of me, and of him too, I can say. Things just got worse that sometimes I feel like giving up, a lot. I kept on questioning, I kept on doubting things between us. If it wasn't for him.. I guess I've given up since Idk when..(well this could be the cheesiest thing I might have ever said in my entire life lol)


Being in a relationship doesn't always mean talking to each other as often as possible.. because it has the tendency to bore you. The only thing I can say.. try to keep up with what's in your relationship and keep on evaluating, not only for the sake of yourself, but the sake of your relationship. As I went to church yesterday, the sermon from the pastor was heart touching..

"Falling in love is easy, but building love and maintaining it is the challenge....When you feel like giving up.. remember the first time you fall in love."

Thank God that this 3 days off finally gives me the chance just to gradually get back where we used to be.. I know the upcoming days are gonna be more and more hectic for sure, but at least I finally got the guts to talk about these to him, and we managed to fix things up. I love you, and I couldn't love you less :)