enough said

"He may still love you, he probably does. He probably doesn't know what he wants. He probably still thinks about you all the time. but that isn't what matters. What matters is what he's doing about it and what he's doing about is nothing. And if he's doing nothing, you most certainly shouldn't do anything. You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life."

Pretty much.. everything.

my last fight

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love

before it's over. before it becomes nothing but a chapter of my past. before everything will soon decay. before memories will forever stay memories..

thanks

September 13, 2013

not my very first heartbreak, not the very first guy to ever break this feeble heart of mine, not the very first experience with going through nights with tears, but.. why this pain seems like it's rotting right into my chest, staying and never leave?

often I left myself wondering and asking the same question all over again.. can I just be myself this one night, just this one night. just to scream till my lungs hurt, just to cry out loud and say "i'm not okay", just to cry and not having to put on a fake smile.. just to not be okay?

but.. i know i have more than this.. i know.

so.. let me just say thankyou. to you.

thankyou for taking a very good care of this so-called-bossy-princess. you really have taken a very good care of me, for reminding every do and don't.
thankyou for always being there for me, like literally always. there was not a single time you're not there for me, even if it's not on that certain time, you'd usually just make it up to me.
thankyou for being a very good support system. without your support, won't be standing strong.
thankyou for dealing with me.. i know it's hard..

you know, there are actually lots i'd like to make it up to you. but nevertheless, thankyou. grateful to have spent years with you.

i never thought it will hurt this much

I never thought I would suffer through the phase when things go tumbling down, when friends and family are needed more than ever, but reality is.. I'm thousands of kilometers apart. I guess this is what the so called growing up phase.

I just miss home.. too much.