The last chapter.

This might be a cheesy-heartfelt-long-picture flooded post.

Time flies way too fast. When I was younger, I believe I have questioned when-school-is-over to my mama papa or to everyone else hundredth time. Now, I know I have the answer. 11th of April. As much as I have waited school to be over my whole life, believe me that.. when something ends, it gotta be bad.

I've waited the day my whole life, and I was 1000% sure that when school's over, I'd leap through the sky (okay I'm goddamn cheesy) and be as happy as a clown. When the day has finally come, I do feel happiness for I'll no longer need to do homeworks and wear uniforms, or the need to wake up early.. But it's weird that I'm actually feeling sad.. Super sad. It feels weird putting all my books out of the shelves and move them to a box. It feels weird not waking up at 5.40 and rushing up to school, with the purpose of continuing my sleep. And the worst part is.. it feels weird not seeing my friends and boyfriend everyday. This might sound unusual and you might think that I'm weird for being sad and melancholy. But believe me when this happens to you, you'll feel the same. (and.. the rest will be in Indonesian, kay..)

 Entahlah, mungkin saya merindukan belajar Matematika, Fisika, Biologi, ataupun Kimia. Saya pasti akan merindukan les sepulang sekolah dan bercanda lebih banyak daripada belajarnya. Saya pasti akan merindukan saat saat menegangkan saat ulangan harian dibagikan. Saya pasti akan merindukan perasaan lega ketika akhirnya bisa lulus ulangan matematika, atau perasaan sedih ketika harus remedial matematika lagi untuk yang kesekian kalinya. Saya akan merindukan muka polos teman teman saya yang sedang berada di awan mimpi ketika presentasi Fisika. Saya pasti akan merindukan lari lari ke kantin bersama teman teman saya demi menghindari antrian panjang pada jam jam istirahat. Saya pasti akan merindukan nasi uduk 5000 beserta tempenya. Saya pasti akan merindukan momen dimana saya biasanya tertidur di lab kimia, bercanda dan tidak pernah mengerti apa apa selama lab fisika, atau tercengang bingung dan kesal ketika tidak kunjung mendapatkan hasil dari preparat. Saya pasti akan merindukan saat saya selalu ngedumel ketika membaca jadwal Mat TR 2 jam, atau pelajaran bahasa Indonesia 2 jam. Saya pasti akan merindukan sensasi ulangan jam ke 0... dan banyak lagi yang mungkin akan membuat anda bosan membacanya.

Mam Mel, the most motherly teacher.

Bu Budi is my favourite Biology teacher.

Bu Tresna, the most punctual teacher ever existed.

Pak Mangatur, cutest teacher ever.

Saya tidak pernah menyangka meninggalkan SMAK 5 akan menjadi sesusah ini. Melepaskan titel pelajar, melepaskan rompi kotak kotak dengan badge Penabur. Meninggalkan gedung norak berwarna merah biru dan kuning yang saya sambangi selama 6 tahun terakhir dimana saya belajar banyak hal. Gedung paling norak yang pernah ada yang penuh dengan cemilan karsogenik, mulai dari snack lidi sampai Warsun di jalan raya, dari cong fan hingga makanan kantin yang setiap tahun naik seribu rupiah. Pelan pelan meninggalkan apa yang sudah terjadi selama 6 tahun di Penabur. Dan terlebih lagi.. meninggalkan teman teman. Ya, mereka yang mengajarkan saya bahwa teman baik bukanlah orang yang meninggalkanmu ketika anda kesulitan. Mereka yang mengajarkan saya bahwa tidak lulus ulangan bukan akhir dari dunia, tapi tidak lulus remedial lah akhir dari segalanya. Mereka yang mengisi kekosongan hati dan mengisi hari dengan canda tawa, hinaan, pukulan, makian, hingga pelukan kasih.

The ones who made goodbye-s are so damn hard.

Hari hari terakhir sekolah memang diisi dengan kejenuhan. Kejenuhan belajar, kejenuhan harus berjuang lagi, dan berbagai pergumulan lainnya. Namun ketka satu hari itu tiba.. Kejenuhan seakan terganti dengan haru. Saling meminta maaf dan juga berterimakasih. Peluk pelukan terakhir dan semangat untuk berjuang melawan musuh terakhir sebelum menyelamatkan sang putri. Menyanyikan hymne guru sebagai dedikasi terakhir kami untuk para pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa, yang membuat kami akhirnya menyatu dalam tangis haru. Ya, guru guru yang selalu saya dumelin setiap soal ulangan terlalu sulit atau cara mengajarnya terlalu absurd. Namun percayalah, bahwa mereka yang menyebalkan, akan membekas dalam di benak saya.

Who'll not miss studying in class? Makin' noises and dozing off?

Saya bukan meninggalkan BPK PENABUR dengan tangan hampa. Saya bukan meninggalkan almamater selama 6 tahun tanpa membawa bekal apa apa untuk hidup saya kedepannya. Saya memang tidak akan pernah bisa mahir dalam Matematika, apalagi ketika itu berhubungan dengan jarak geometri dan integral. Suatu saat nanti, saya pasti akan lupa bahwa hanya sel hewan yang memiliki lisosom dan sentriol, sementara sel tumbuhan memiliki kloroplas dan vakuola. Saya juga pasti tidak akan hafal mati semua teori atom Rutherford, efek fotolistrik atau hamburan Coumpton. Mungkin saya nantinya juga akan lupa bahwa CH=CH2 itu stirena, bahan baku buat bikin plastik. Ya, sekolah memang tempat buat menimba ilmu. Untuk belajar mengenai hukum pasti. Namun, sekarang saya menyadari bahwa sesungguhnya hidup membutuhkan ilmu yang lebih dari teori atom, rumus integral volume, efek fotolistrik, ataupun hafalan monomer polimer..

Apabila suatu saat nanti saya jalan kita berkesimpangan, jangan tanyakan saya mengenai pelajaran Fisika atau Kimia karena saya yakin saya tidak akan pernah mengingatnya kembali, maaf. Namun tanyakanlah kepada saya apa yang saya pelajari dari SMAK5. Dan tanpa ragu saya akan menjawab, kerja keras membuahkan hasil, apabila Tuhan mengkehendaki. Life is all about the fight and how hard you're willing to compete in the rat race. SMAK 5 is literally more than just daily tests, it's about life lessons. Hard work, responsibility, and to never give up.

"Semangat juang, sukseskan misi iman, ilmu, pelayanan."

Hallo.

Hallo.

Been quite busy occupying myself with school and national examination preparation. It's next week and yes, high school ends. Just like that. Eventhough I still and forever will hate math classes, I'm trying my best not to be grumpy during lesson because I know I'll definitely miss the feeling of studying in class. And on every lesson too! :)

Just a quick picture post to tell what has happened these days.

Super yummy cheesecake and almond mini cake from Maqui's and also super delicate Hokkaido layer cake ( Mille feuille)

Well, a better view. It's oreo and green tea! 

Just because the delivery guy is 30 mins late. Got a free voucher yay!

Because I can't afford a Loubs, so this Zara kids loafers will do me good.

My ugly Australia visa picture. Looked so tired.

Happy birthday boyfriend!

What I got him..

Because I was too bored..

Fish and Chips for his birthday @ The Manhattan Fish Market

What I'm best at... Looking ugly.

Pretty mommy doing what she's best at!

Another mommy picture..

I never know what's it called but it's one of my fav sushi from Sushi Tei.

Yay to 500 days.

Some physics shit.

A crown for McDonald because I'm 18 years old.

Ugly pic #2 (but I still posted it anyways..)

This is #2 best spanish food.. #1 is paella.

My cousins give me and i find it cute.

Salud!

Lavender ugly toe nails.

Adios!

500 days of you.

Thankyou for bearing with me and all my irrational grants.
We all know that sometimes I wish for something stupid and out of mind, but you always have an end to deal with it! I'm just this one girl with stupid crazy ideas going on in my mind :)

Thankyou for staying with me throughout this five-hundred days.
I can guarantee you that staying with me that long is something rather... miraculous, since I'm not the kind of girl every guy can deal with. I can sometimes be very vocal, ignoring what's around. Or I can sometimes be so reserved that I refuse to tell you what I feel.

Thankyou for always being there, waking up, and staying with me throughout the midnight whenever I have ultimate nightmare.
I sometimes have problem sleeping, especially when it's way past my bedtime.. which is at 9. When the clock strikes 11, I can't even close my eyes. You're always there waiting for me till I fell asleep, eventhough you're sometimes sleepy like hell. 

Thankyou for always telling me to study, even though I never feel like studying.
Actually.. I'm quite diligent by nature. But there are times when I am just so tired of studying that I refuse to study. But you're always there, saying like, "Ayo belajar jangan males2," and other stuffs. When it comes to studying at 4 am, you've always been my alarm clock! And you'll make sure whether I'm already wide awake, or still half awake.

Thankyou for being the one who seems to have lots of creative ideas to surprise me, you know how much I love surprises.
You truly know that something is sweet when it's least expected. My 18th birthday surprise last January that you succeed on surprising me. Your very sincere White Day gifts, a box filled with my favourite. From Choki-choki to Ferrero!

Thankyou for always giving in when it comes to meal, all my choices!
You'll always ask me what I want to eat, not what you want to eat - just because you know I'm one picky eater. Seriously. All this freaking 500 days, I guess I never really go with your opinion. As far as I remember, few days ago was the first time. Accompanying you to eat your favourite Nasi Campur Babi which I don't like. And the rest, it was all my choice!

Thankyou for helping me when it comes to cleaning spoon and fork, or chopsticks.
HAHAHA. I am sometimes super ignorant that you ended up cleaning the spoon and fork for me! Weehee!

Thankyou for dealing with my fear towards balloons, or my slightly OCD.
You never took me to places full with balloons, you have tried different kinds of effort just to help me get over it. You make sure, I feel safe and clean, which matter a lot to me. You never complain about my OCD, or my fear, or my other things.

Thankyou for getting me back on my feet when I'm down.
I can always count on you, and that's for sure. No matter what I'm dealing with, you're just there to listen to my 'sometimes' stupid rants about thing. You always tell me that.. there's always a bright side.

Thankyou for praying for me whenever I overslept.
It's good to have someone who really actually care for you, and don't mind to send out prayers for you just because you fell asleep. I fell asleep easily and I find that quite often, so I missed my night prayers. And there you go, praying for me.

Thankyou for teaching me ICTs all this whole 2 years.
Without you, I'll definitely fail everything!
You are a real genius. I wonder how I will survive that website project, or the PHP daily tests, or the Microsoft Excel thing without you. The least thing I can do is operate high technologies. I'm a dumb. And you bear with me and all my complains about how I never get through the point, or when I still don't understand.

Thankyou for all your support, you know it best!
I am the very kind of person who gets down easily. My heart and feeling, they're so fragile. During harsh weeks, I often find myself crying too much just because the problems I'm dealing with felt so overwhelming. And there you go, puk-puk me and comfort me. Just to make me feel better.

Thankyou for reminding me to forever love my mama papa. There's no love greater than mama papa's love, you say.
And.. to be honest I'm quite a rebel, not only with my parents but with every situation. I'm a hardheaded one, that I stand for what I think is right. But sometimes, what's right to me isn't what's right to everyone else, and even to my parents and that's why I have gotten into fights with them, which I really don't want to. And somehow, you showed me that though parents may not really understand your feeling 100%, there's no greater love.

Thankyou for reminding me how to sit properly, to never shout out loud like a kiddo anymore.
You're so like a reminder, or a manner class tutor. HAHAHA. You always told me that.. it's time to grow up and show somehow the well-mannered you.

Thankyou for helping me dealing with my low self-esteem issues, for encouraging me and you always mention what's good in me, for like twice or more a week - just to make me feel better.
Believe it or not.. I'm not best at boosting my confidence. I have low esteem issues since I don't recall when but, this shit is kind of serious. You always tell me that everything has two sides, and it's okay to have flaws, since no one is flawless. But what's wrong is focusing on the bad side, not on the good side. I believe that this is rather hard for you dealing with this low-esteem me. I mean, it seems like every good things you told me evaporates when the low esteem issues strike. But.. thanks for trying over and over again.

Thankyou for reminding me to eat, because I have gastritis which forces me to eat.
I am reluctant that somehow I ignored every meal just because I have more important things to do than eat, and just because I'm easily distracted. You never get bored on reminding me to get something to eat, or to even force me to eat in times I don't really wanted to. And then.. just because you know I messed my week by not eating, you delivers me foods which I crave the most.

Thankyou for always telling me that I don't need a diet.
I have concern about my weight, just because I'm somehow 2 kgs overweight in my opinion. But there you go reminding me about the fact that I don't need to lose even a bit of my weight, to enjoy my last bits of time in Indo eating everything I wanted to, and telling me that I'm good already.


Thankyou for your time you spent on me, doing nonsense stuffs.
I know that I'm somehow the definition of weird that I love museums, or other stuffs some girls find it boring.  But eventhough I know we're not much alike, you've agreed to go with me to museums. I have a very erratic to do list, that you know and somehow find weird, but you're willing to do it with me!

Thankyou that you're willing to always fulfil my cravings!
This is best. You know I'm the girl with hundred thousands of cravings, varying as each day goes by. And thankyou for dealing with that and somehow, fulfilling it.


You perhaps may not be the guy who loaded his girl with flowers or gifts. But sometimes, girls need someone who give them more than flowers or gifts. Flowers will withers and gifts can be traded, but memories and everything can't wither, and can't be traded. But I still love flowers and gifts tho :3

Happy 500th days. Maybe it wasn't the best at sometimes but, I truly cherished every thing. We may started off as ruins, fighting over little stuffs but I believe, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger :)

Kitchen mayhem

Had my class yearbook photoshoot yesterday at Rancamaya Golf Estate, somewhere in Bogor.

High school is ending. Soon.