Break-up issues.

This few days of 2012 might have been tough to a fellow of mine, and somehow for myself as well. But alas, I just gotta swallow everything because sometimes, there's no other choice given.

Going through a breakup has never been easy to anyone. Yes, I know you knew. To me, it's more about the loss. The loss of someone who has been sticking up with you for a period of time and now... that particular someone is gone. And as one went away, thee left footprints - that you somehow reminiscence , and emptiness.

The room that was well-furnished for a period of time, you are used to the chairs in the corner of the room. To the lights. To the posters on the wall. You know the exact place of the chairs. You know how dark the room is when there's no lights. You know the exact amount of the posters and polaroids you have hanging on the wall. You know every single thing. And now, someone take the chairs away. You no longer have the chairs. The lights are off. You no longer have the brightness of the room. Someone rip off all your posters, polaroids are put in an album. What you have left? Back to square one, an empty room. Like how it used to be before stuffs are stuffed.

Breaking up, is like an emptied room. You used to have someone who sticks up with you, roots for you all the time. You used to have someone to at least, get through the day with you. And short story, that particular someone is gone.. it's like dealing with emptiness, of you, who's used to have someone. It's pretty much like the empty room. Emptiness has never been a small issues, furthermore when you are used to the opposite of it. But, somehow the truth is the truth. An empty room don't feel good, do they? An empty room makes you feel lonely. But you can only roam all you want in an empty room. You can only crawl without the fear of hitting a chair in one empty room. And somehow, when the room is empty, you'll see what the room offers you. You'll see what you didn't see, because the room was stuffed, that your focus was in the stuffs. You'll start pay attention to small details. You might find your long lost teddy bear, after the room is empty.

You'll see what you didn't see in you, because the last time, it was about that particular someone. Life goes on, with or without. No regrets.

On the other hand, days before my freakin' seventeenth and I don't want it to be! It's not that I wanna stay young forever, oh yes I does but it's mission impossible.. I just.. don't feel like growing up or being 17 :--O