enough said

"He may still love you, he probably does. He probably doesn't know what he wants. He probably still thinks about you all the time. but that isn't what matters. What matters is what he's doing about it and what he's doing about is nothing. And if he's doing nothing, you most certainly shouldn't do anything. You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life."

Pretty much.. everything.

my last fight

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love

before it's over. before it becomes nothing but a chapter of my past. before everything will soon decay. before memories will forever stay memories..

thanks

September 13, 2013

not my very first heartbreak, not the very first guy to ever break this feeble heart of mine, not the very first experience with going through nights with tears, but.. why this pain seems like it's rotting right into my chest, staying and never leave?

often I left myself wondering and asking the same question all over again.. can I just be myself this one night, just this one night. just to scream till my lungs hurt, just to cry out loud and say "i'm not okay", just to cry and not having to put on a fake smile.. just to not be okay?

but.. i know i have more than this.. i know.

so.. let me just say thankyou. to you.

thankyou for taking a very good care of this so-called-bossy-princess. you really have taken a very good care of me, for reminding every do and don't.
thankyou for always being there for me, like literally always. there was not a single time you're not there for me, even if it's not on that certain time, you'd usually just make it up to me.
thankyou for being a very good support system. without your support, won't be standing strong.
thankyou for dealing with me.. i know it's hard..

you know, there are actually lots i'd like to make it up to you. but nevertheless, thankyou. grateful to have spent years with you.

i never thought it will hurt this much

I never thought I would suffer through the phase when things go tumbling down, when friends and family are needed more than ever, but reality is.. I'm thousands of kilometers apart. I guess this is what the so called growing up phase.

I just miss home.. too much.

Bits of Melbourne.

Hey. It has been a very long time since I last wrote something on this blog. My last post was pretty much only picture and now here I'm to tell the story.

So.. I've been in Melbourne since the 24th of May.. which is a long time already. I'm currently taking RMIT's foundation in Art, Design and Architecture. And the reason being is because I'm still not sure where to go so.. I'll just play safe with foundation. Living all by myself and have to do all by myself is.. horrible. But I'm getting used at it. And being a design student turns out to be busy and full of sleepless night! Thanks to eyecream, I don't have severe eyebags.

I do miss Indonesia. I miss tempe so bad. But.. Melbourne isn't really bad either. I just dislike the always-changing weather, and sometimes the city is pretty boring. Everything's expensive that I can't go shopping. The foods are fine... eventhough they cost a bomb. 3 more weeks till term break, I can't wait to rest my feet.

RMIT Student's Diary...which i never really use.

 My ADA mates.

Ma room!

 

This is all foodie heaven.

I can cook now!

 

All around RMIT

 

Lost and found flea market!

English class is always... boring.

Movie here costs a lot

Went to NGV for a gallery review and saw interesting stuffs!

 My colour wheel project which is worth all the mess.

 Final of my wire project

 

The city baths

Timtam is addicting.

 

Love love love cheap treats.

Best cupcake in Melbourne, they say. And they really tastes good.

 Yours sincerely.

See you guys soon!