You hate love, but it;s inevitable

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Nothing lasts forever.

My very bestfriend's Dad just passed away. It has been 100 days since my uncle passed away. Summer 2 years ago, a friend of mine also passed away. The thing about life is.. Nothing lasts forever. Really nothing. People come and go, days passes and things go by. Time keeps on ticking and it won't stop for even a meresecond. Honestly, I'm not good dealing with death. Things are never the same after death approaches. Seeing your friends and family crying over a dead body, and the body of someone you loved is no longer breathing. It is never easy. And never will be easy. But, life goes on. You shall not cry over things that has been done. God has a plan.

Things have been so ARGH lately. I feel like screaming to the top of my lungs. Lord.

I'm so glad to have you back.

Same hospital, same storey, same alley, same person, different time, condition and feelings. The talk that simply changes the way I think and the way I will look forward things. It was the talk that slaps me right in the face. How I saw things in the different side which is.. the freaking cause of everything. It has been years. not just year. But years. And we never actually have ever left each other. It's funny how we knew things without being told. We just knew. I'm just so glad to have my friend back.


10 years of Harry Potter and I'm so glad that I was able to make it to the premiere. 14th July. It all ends, and I did cry. A lot. I mean, all these years. I have another Harry Potter book/movie to look after to. But now, it's over. Well, thanks Harry Potter.

Well in my case, I heal at a slower pace.

The ones we love tend to stay in our hearts and minds long after the relationship ends. While some move on quickly, others dwell and heal at a slower pace. Whatever the case, the thoughts, emotions and memories we experience during this time are heartwrenchingly powerful and real.

Oh she's the prettiest!

This is miss Suicide Avenue. She's the prettiest <3