thanks

September 13, 2013

not my very first heartbreak, not the very first guy to ever break this feeble heart of mine, not the very first experience with going through nights with tears, but.. why this pain seems like it's rotting right into my chest, staying and never leave?

often I left myself wondering and asking the same question all over again.. can I just be myself this one night, just this one night. just to scream till my lungs hurt, just to cry out loud and say "i'm not okay", just to cry and not having to put on a fake smile.. just to not be okay?

but.. i know i have more than this.. i know.

so.. let me just say thankyou. to you.

thankyou for taking a very good care of this so-called-bossy-princess. you really have taken a very good care of me, for reminding every do and don't.
thankyou for always being there for me, like literally always. there was not a single time you're not there for me, even if it's not on that certain time, you'd usually just make it up to me.
thankyou for being a very good support system. without your support, won't be standing strong.
thankyou for dealing with me.. i know it's hard..

you know, there are actually lots i'd like to make it up to you. but nevertheless, thankyou. grateful to have spent years with you.