If I had one wish, I'd like to not know you at all.

It's not that I regret, well maybe a little bit, but because perhaps.. you're not that important anymore
maybe you don't even deserve that chapter
maybe someone else should have had that chapter

but fuck it.. the echoes of your name still feels like lemon on a fresh cut wound

First year is over, at least I am alive. Not the best drawer, but that distinct art from design. I think I come out of first year being so much more thrilled in what I am doing. A wrong choice? I no longer think so.

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You know how I feel right now? It's like having so much to say, but I have my mouth stuffed with gauze pads and not being able to let out a word.

What game are you on, universe?

I once forgot what causes my chest left opened, I forgot the pain.
It was all good, all so well.
All other things running around in my mind, I sense a bit of you has finally gone missing.
But, the universe won't stop its game on me.
A glimpse of it comes back again.
This time, I'm losing myself. Only with a thought of you.

Terimakasih

Iya, buat kamu.

Makasih ya udah mewarnai kelabu,
mengukir senyuman di wajah,
menoreh kenangan di benak,

bukan masalah seberapa lama kamu ada,
tapi tentang apa yang sudah kamu tinggalin buat aku,

kamu bikin aku percaya,
bahwa masih ada aja orang baik,
masih ada aja yang bisa aku percaya,
dan bahwa,
sampai pada akhirnya pun,
aku selalu punya alasan buat tersenyum.

Terimakasih